this week was supposed to be terrible! I just got dumped by my boyfriend of 7 months, I thought everything’d be awful, etc.
I may have extreme anxiety problems, and you’d think it would make me more sympathetic to other people, but I have a really hard time with people who say they ‘can’t’ do something. I’m too scared, I ‘can’t’. I don’t have the motivation, I ‘can’t’. It’s impossible, I HAVE to react this way. It’s too hard.
I’ve spent my life punching too many holes through the brick wall that is my social phobia and anger issues to hear you spew that bs at me. I’ve worked too hard and too long for people to make excuses at me.
Do people not realize forcing yourself to do uncomfortable things and forcing your mindset and actions to go the way you want is the key to dealing with things? I don’t wanna hear anymore of this ‘I can’t’ wah-wah BS that people pull so they can allow themselves to be lazy under the guise that mental illnesses (or motivation itself) are so hard that they exempt you from being a functioning human being. Maybe your parents never forced you to do stuff as a child, but in my world, they made me do it until I got over it and grew up.
Nike-style. Just do it. Pull some motivation out of that supremely wiped asshole and realize the only thing stopping you is literally your own decision. Kick the shit out of your disorders. Be a bloodstained one-man army standing in a field of dead bodies owned by your personal restrictions. Be a self-cleaning oven. ‘Good enough’ is never good enough.
Success in any field is due to forcing yourself to succeed and allowing yourself to be great. Stop waiting for fucking permission to be awesome.
got my pokemon y and my special edition 3ds and my boyfriend and i are doing great and everything is so good (minus being sick) <3
i’ve been constantly getting migraines and not being able to sleep at night due to them
and then i get home from school and i collapse and sleep for four hours and waste the whole day
even if i force myself to stay up through the nap i can’t sleep at night and almost passed out in my weight lifting class due to 2 hours of sleep
so i apologize for not being active or talkative much i just
right now isn’t good for me
Sometimes I get tired of people bitching about how bad their life is
omfg nevermind talking to cute boy i had a crush on and was too scared to say hi to was a success
like a hardcore A+ success
i really should try to go out of my way and say hi and talk to people and maybe ask them out because wow i think he likes me back!!!!!! on the first day!!! awesome!
i remember when you told me
once or twice, that you left a spot next to you in bed every night
1200 miles (well it’s actually 1267, you’d chime in) away
and yet you kept a space there
in case I, sleepily, crept into your arms in the midst of the night
rest with you
now it is i, 1200 miles away
who leaves a spot for you every sleepless night
my bed’s not big enough for your 6’2” body
and definitely not your dick,
i’d say, like always, ever-the-immature-one
and we’d laugh just like before, your childlike giggle
pealing like sweet bells in my ears
maybe you, longingly, would creep into my space
firmly torn in my heart, where you used to reside
and rest with me once again